Growing up in the church, you would think I was a saint, had no faults, and never sin!
REALLY?
If you think that then I honestly don’t know what planet you’re living in.
I am a proud Christian who believes in Jesus Christ that does not mean I’m better than you! I already know because I’m writing this post a lot of people are going to read my previous post, and judge my character based on what I previously written.
Honestly that doesn’t faze me!
I figure if I can write about everything else, why not write about my lord and savior.
You see my God has kept me; God favors me, he forgave me so many time, and no matter what he still loves me!
If I was a perfect Christian, I would not disobey my parents, have sex before marriage, curse…. Man I can go on!
When I was younger I went to church because I had no choice! In my teenage years I was disobedient and made my own decision not go. Later I made it my business to go back not because I wanted to be close to god, in fact it was because I wanted to be close to some guy who I was crushing on.
Who knows, maybe that was god way of keeping me close, maybe he knew if I went far out into the world, and way too far from the church I will have never come back.
You see, although I was going to church for some guy, we only had two short opportunity to speak, if we were lucky to get 5 minutes. We will speak in the church van when we were picked up IF there was a seat next to him, and after church. The bottom line is we couldn’t flirt like we wanted to, and we couldn’t do anything suspicious to get caught.
So guess what’s happening during the church service? Im up listening and observing, Yes sometimes I fall asleep, but I could never get in a deep sleep with all the noise. I could hear everything that was going on. With my eyes close, and my head against the wall, my body will beg me for the bed, and sometimes I just wished for a moment of silence because I felt like that would be the best nap ever! But you know what my brain was feeding. Along the way I find myself joining them in worship, up until I found my voice and started singing at the church. I had no fear, I wasn’t shy at all and I felt so good!
And now I’m 27 years old, with a mind of my own. My parents are no longer waking me up several times to get ready for church, I’m no longer taking extra long showers in hopes that the church van come, and leave me because I’m not ready. Im no longer going to church for some guy I’m crushing on instead I’m proud to be going to church with the same guy I’m still crushing on! And although I’m still a sinner I’m praying that one day I wont have to pray for forgiveness anymore. I’m praying he gives me my voice back so I can dedicated a song to him in front of the church, not just in the shower, or in my home.
Because God favors me so much, I just want to make him proud! In my journey, all I want is to get closer to god. I want to sin less until I can sin no more. I want god to use me in a way, where I can quote every verse in the bible, I want to practice what I preach so when I tell others about God, I don’t come off as fake. Instead others will see me as the true believer that I am
At the end of the day we are enable to our believes, God gave us that freedom, we have a choice! And I Choose Jesus! All I want is to be a better Christian, I want god to have mercy on us, because we are all sinners. I pray that when the time comes, I meet you all in Heaven! Hmm I should plan a heaven party huh?
What have god done for you? SHARE YOUR STORY DON’T BE SHY.
God Bless You!
