Motivational Love

There’s this sense of connection someone feels when they’re in the arm of the one they love. The urgency to love them, the hunger to seek they’re affection, the “I love you’s” you hunt for when it’s been a while, that feeling when you love with everything in you. They inspire you, even when they don’t realize. They bring you joy, that happiness that put you on the top of the world. With them by your side, you can conquer anything. You now live for us, not just you, they become a part of you.

The Shift

The truth is my husband inspires me, it’s kind of hard to explain, Imagine the euphoria you experience when you’re on an extreme high. Lol… follow me here, except this high is love. As of late, I’ve lost some of my passion for writing. This ironically happened around the same time I began to experience a lack of affection in our marriage.

I know you didn’t see that one coming…

I’ve held back on discussing the recent feelings I’ve been experiencing in my relationship, and that simply because I strongly believe in the husband and wife code. Certain situations that occur in a relationship should remain private…  However, the only way I know how to express myself is through sex and my writing. And since I can’t remember the last time I got some, I’m left with the next best thing.

Lack Of…

There is a difference between being alone and being lonely. Yes, we all can enjoy some “me” time, and it’s necessary at times to be able to enjoy your own company while gathering your thoughts. However, it’s new for me to be accompanied by another and to still feel alone, that now is crawling into loneliness territory; I am definitely unfamiliar with that. I’m fully aware that I am loved, however, knowing someone loves you and feeling loved are two entirely different things.

I feel sense of abandonment, and I’m mainly using that word because I recently moved over 300 miles from home, away from my loved ones. The separation for has been weighing on me, and at this moment I feel home sick. Not only because I miss them, but also, I miss having someone to talk to, someone who don’t mind me getting on their nerves at times. Your significant other is supposed to fill that void, aren’t they? What can I say I feel neglected, my heart and my body have been enduring this singleness for too long. I desire to be whole, I desire to feel desired, I desire to be motivated.

Motivate Your Love

Generally speaking, in a relationship, two people are supposed to inspire one another. When all else fails the other keeps you up and encourages you to keep going. And at times, when that necessary attention is lacking, and you’re on the battlefield of life looking over at the bleachers only to realize your cheerleader is missing, discouragement enters the equations. At times, we may allow that to fester until it becomes that “thing” in our closet that we think if it’s left in the dark long enough it’ll disappear. Failing to address the situation and overtime, that darkness eventually leaks into other areas of the relationship. Before you know it, toxicity blossoms where love use to dwell. Be careful, love lost at times can never be regained.