The Man In My Dreams
Growing up I had dreams of getting married to a man who had no face, for that reason I had no idea what my husband looked like. In fact, I was more intrigue with the wedding than I was with the actual marriage ceremony itself. Us becoming one not two, like my mother always say “onegether”. The first guy I ever dated I knew was the man in my dream. Although the dream never confirmed it, I knew the way I felt for this one was no doubt Real. Despite not seeing each other as often, we crave each other every second of the day and became official.
Goodbye My Love
After about four years together in love, something happened we never saw coming! We found ourselves sitting in car sometime around midnight not too far from my parents’ house having the Talk. We decided to let each other go, my father was too strict, the sneaking around was becoming annoying, and missing each other ALL THE TIME was not part of a growing relationship. What we were doing had signs engraved all around us telling us it wasn’t right. If it was then why are we crying! After moments of silence, we kiss & hug each other goodbye. Lying in bed sobbing trying so hard not to let out a scream so my sister wont wake up, made me question what caused this to happen.
A Lost & Lonely Girl
No longer was I the same girl blinded by other men, I was the girl searching in all the wrong places for the same love that was lost. I became attracted to boys who wasn’t my type, forgetting that men like my ex exist! Was so quick to let them know I was still in love with my ex while dating, refusing to see that they didn’t give. I wasted no time demanding and hoping they will love me like my ex, but no matter how hard they try it wasn’t good enough. At the age where there’s no sneaking around and constantly going out, I was getting what I never could with the men of my dream. Somehow, I wished to go back to that because I was now creating my own nightmares of heart break!
New Found Love
After Realizing that there was no one out there, like the one I lost, No friends to talk to, I ended my search and turned to God. For the first time in my life I didn’t think nor care about relationships, the friends I lost, not even the love of my life. My focus was on God, and I soon realize he was all I needed. It wasn’t long before I decided to give my life to God completely. Before I knew it the unexpected happened. The man I loved & haven’t spoken to in seven years was here at a baby shower! Suddenly the feelings I had for him and the way his presence made me feel came back like they never left. Couldn’t be in the same room as him, yet I couldn’t leave without saying goodbye, because I knew hello comes first. I felt more deeply in love with the men of my dream who features changed over the years, But I knew for sure his heart didn’t.
My Father My Father
I question God, why now?
He answered: You, finally found me, and now I can be a part of this union. When you were going to church it was for him, and once you lost him you stop going. You had to go back to Find me first before you could get him forever! MY OH MY AIN’T GOD GOOD! Sometimes god makes us laugh, if not cry tears of joys. To think all this time, he was right under my face in the same county! Our parents being friends with the same people, his mother and my mom being close friends. Yet we never came across each other Until now! Talk about God’s Time, indeed it’s the best time!
PURSUING MY HUSBAND!
Getting my husband back took no work at all, everything was so easy! I had no way of getting in contact with the love of life, except through an old email we use to communicate with each other years ago. It took no time at all to get a notification on my phone. Seeing his email on my screen, made me feel like a little girl all over again. Blushing from ear to ear, I suddenly felt like the luckiest girl in the world! The rest is History! I wasted no time letting him know about my love for God, and my plans to get baptize. I even told him I come with a package my dog prince. After Numerous of emails exchanged and catching up we finally exchanged numbers and soon set the first date.
I DO
Mark 10:9 Therefore what God has joined together let no one separate!
From this moment, I vowed to love him forever as my husband. Getting our parents blessings was all we needed! We did not need a contract with the government our contract was with God! I can’t wait to have a big wedding to celebrate our love every 3 years! Thank God for bringing us together. Thank you Jesus for removing all the soul ties in my life and his, and joining our soul together as one! I’m Grateful for the family he’s given us, and for the many blessings he has in store for us! To God be the glory for making me go through what I went through in that order! 1Corithians 13:4-8 (To sum up) Love is patience love is kind it does not envy or boast, it is not proud… Love never fails.
